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Sunday, January 24, 2010

nothing, just me alone...

just as title... yupe is nothing... basically I have nothing... alone and still alone after so long and still alone...

I still alone in a dark room that have no light and no future...
future is nothing for me until now... i still have nothing...

some of you may feel i'm a lucky guy from what can see but inside I still feel like so so so damn empty and nothing, dark and black.

sometime, somehow - i feel like i wan to find her and tell her how deep i love her but somehow, some moment that is something dint follow what i wan... yupe... and i still alone and nothing...

a body without the soul - empty soul, yupe that me now...

*find-ing the light in a very dark room* : X... H...., I love you... and you are my light...

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Samsung Nuffnang Color Me Corby Carnival

last Saturday, wat a nice day... a day i wake up early then my father... lol.... around 7.oo am...
haha... and I prepare myself to go to sunway lagoon, extreme part which i dunno still wan to go or not since a day before...

ask y??? ask y??? lol... because i attend 1 member night and return home with half close eyes de... and feel very tired to drive to sunway and guess wat??? because of Samsung giving out Corby and i may be have a change to grab one... there the reason i go...

lol... I reach Sunway Pynamid around 8.30 am... and when i came out from Parking lot, I saw the main entrance of Sunway Lagoon.. now i need go search for the side entrance... lol.... haha... walk, walk and walk... finilly i reach de... the side entrance... lol... i the first one there... lol... sign in and run to have my breakfast at station 1... lol... and wait the time come...

*skip the boring part*

ops... There are 4 game to be play and to be win to get the Samsung Corby which are...

stomping the yard
tug of war in water
rock climbing
paintball shooting....

and wait... there are one more thing... we are total of 100 ppl and had been divided into 4 group follow with the colour of Samsung Corby (pink, yellow, orange, and white)
lol... and guess wat... I in pink... ^^ that all about the beginning of the Samsung Nuffnang Color Me Corby Carnival

画意能达万言 (a chinese proverb) which mean "One Picture is Worth Ten Thousand Words".
Therefore the fight between group and the fun among all of us will describe by photo took from that day... (i using Canon IXUS 120 IS)...

*it may load slow depend on ur internet connection*

Thank to Nuffnang ... I have the change on go-ing to this fun and good and nice and... (watever u can think of) Samsung Nuffnang Color Me Corby Carnival... Thank Nuffnang...

Thursday, January 14, 2010

The day of all feeling come to me

I go with smile because of her, I reach and feel dissapointed because of her too, and I leave with sad also because of her.... all because of her!!!!

no one understand me, no one saw , and no one care when I cry... no one... all me alone...

I alone and sad... I alone and feel disappointed... I alone and got nothing... I alone and no one care about... I alone and still will be alone...

she wont care... she wont know... and soon she will feel happy when the moment I say I give up, I dun care and I will leave all this behind....

wish her hv a happy moment with her friend, family and herself...

Friday, January 08, 2010

something for her...

On that time this message wrote, i was emo-ing and feel-ing sad that every single invitation of me rejected by her and by look-ing her picture, I feel that the pain inside my heart are burned up...

既然爱上了你，我愿意顺从你；
我只求你能懂，我的心只有你；
你的一举一动能左右我的情绪；
你爱不爱都好，我从不抱怨你；
我只求天天能见你，无所他求；
与其换一个，也不见的比你好；
我只知道我爱你。。。

Fall in love with you, I'm willing to listen;
I hope you can understand my heart;
every single action of yours bring deep effect to my emotion;
no matter which you choose, I'll never complain;
I just hope I can see you every single day, nothing else that i hope for;
even if i chose one to replace you, no one would be better then you;
I only know I LOVE YOU...

note : it came out as Chinese then i feel that she should know what i wrote, from that moment i start to translate it to English

thank you Stephanie, Nicholas and Sarah to give some ideal on finish-ing this translation...

Tuesday, January 05, 2010

2010 New Year Countdown...

31 December 2009, no thing special just like a normal day for me...
in the early morning, i drive to klang using KESAS highway and reach that around 12.00pm... walaoA... 30 minute to klang!!!! why go there sure got reason... go watch movie:- Treassure Hunter @ 2.00pm and fetch two mei nv go countdown...

then wat i do-ing there before 2.00pm wash car!!! haha... wat2do la... my car few week didnt wash jor... so, find a car wash center and wash car la... haha RM 8 per car!!! include vacuum... haha...

I wait and wait... 30 minute pass jor... car also finish wash jor, then i go to college and walk around... lol...

lepak @ comp lab until 1.30pm, and go Jusco, Bukit Raja and wait for koh and yen yen for the movie lol... overall, is not a bad movie but nice... haha... few minute before movie end, sarah sms me that she go-ing for movie and will finish after 2 hr... walao... nvm lol, lepak @ jusco lol... haha... i became kaki lepak jor... haha

after the time reach 5.00pm, i go to shieh ren's house (erm... not her house, the house-ing area only) and call her where her house, but then oh.... she told me she got dinner with her family's friend...

nvm lol... i nice boy wat, so i go fetch sarah lol... but i forget how to go to her house jor...

so, i stop @ tmn rakyat and sms her... she reply this:-

walk straight. den u saw the kedai. den after the kedai got 2 junction 2nd junction turn right den walk straight till the end. den turn right. walk to the end again. turn right. den find 'x'...

follow only lol..

after fetch her, i go to KLCC straight away.... *nope* i go around KLCC!!!! sesat @ KL jor... pusing... pusing... pusing... then bring her half way to the new college area and pusing agian... haha... finally reach....

we both walk here and there after reach, to see around and find the bukit bintang street... pusing again... pusing... pusing... and pusing... finally, we knew we go the wrong way jor...